Friday, November 6, 2009
i ve come to realised
after a long long time, i m up here again to write something...guess nothing is going right for the moment now....problems keep on arise in me....i dont feel myself anymore...i m so sick of myself now...i don't even know what to do...i m so lost now....and i've come to realised that, i m just a failure...
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
interesting conversation
this incident happen on 16 sept around 940pm..i went in to another to find the answer book...there he started the conversation..
*TC indicates my boss
JK is me
TC : haiya...feel sad la..those form 5 students is leaving ald n going to university...
JK : why feel sad?should be proud ma...they all can go to U wo...
TC : they all followed me many years ald le..c they grow up and then go in U...
JK : then ma should feel proud la...haha..no need sad ma...at least that proved u successfully bring them up wat...
*i wonder y feel sad..==" totally have no idea on what he is thinking....
JK : hmmm...how about the woon bin(another teacher which is younger) doing? is entered U ald??
TC : him ah??not yet lah...still waiting for the SPM july paper result...i worried the result will release late..i scared he will missed the intake...
JK : eh?got intake at this time meh?
TC : yea...got intake..september intake ma...
JK : ooo..okay...so which college is he going in??
* here comes the sacarstic part..=.="
TC : college?hahaha...i am a bit greedy la..i want them to enter university..at least it sounds better...
*well..i think if u can really study, no matter where also the same la...=.=" colleges and university almost studying the same thing..=="
JK : ooo...haha...then which U you planning to send them?
TC : at 1st i tot of UTAR...but UTAR not really that good...
JK : oo..actually TARC also ok ma...the fees still considerable ma...
TC : u dun be angry ah...not to talk bad bout TARC la...TARC is a bad college rite??alot of bad students 1 rite?
JK : erm...yea...there are alots of bad students...but still depends ma...cannot say all are bad 1...
* damn! really an anti-TARC bastard...=.=" i m TARCian as well la...m i bad??think before you talk dude...as far as i know TARC is quite a good college wei..only those students who always fool around, nvr take serious in studies, copy-cats and those lala ppl spoil the reputation only ma...
TC : UTAR n TARC ah...produce quality students so what??when apply job that time when they see your cert is from either UTAR o TARC ah...sure damn low the pay...nah..like my cert from OUM is different...
JK : ooo...ok..(=.="choose to not 2 argue wif him...somehow somewhat, he is my boss...let him boost)
TC : u see ah...UTAR n TARC cert are not recognised by the gov. u know??like my OUM (open university malaysia..my gosh.. :S) is recognise by the gov 1...so har, when u apply for job hor, also easier...
JK : yea..thats true...get recognised is easier 1 ma...
TC : so got quality so what??haha...u c like me..haha...
JK : ahahaha...(jerk..=.=")
* as if i dunno what kind of place is OUM..=.= really lousy to be frank....only those who really damn weak are suitable to go in...
TC : actually right, OUM lecturer suck u noe...when puasa ah...they said they feel sleepy n they end the classs...somemore hor assignment u got submit n he said everyone will get A...he really do so...
JK : wa...like that oso can ah??
TC : we all got online discussion 1 ma...u go in 10 times then got marks ald...
JK : ooo...then how much is the fees??
TC : 10k only..
JK : 10k??straight up to degree level ah??
TC : if u wan degree then have to do another 1.5 years lo...actually OUM is good...like u all graduated ald ah..surely owe ptptn money ma...OUM different...u can work and study as well..
JK : ooo...yea...but i personally thinks that study n doing part time is not really good for our studies la...like engineering course surely die 1...haha...
TC : actually i encourage my students go for business admin....
JK : oooo...then ok la...
then i left and drive home...damn...the way he talk is totally one sided thinking man...well..whatever la...i mind my own business then ok ald...haha...
*TC indicates my boss
JK is me
TC : haiya...feel sad la..those form 5 students is leaving ald n going to university...
JK : why feel sad?should be proud ma...they all can go to U wo...
TC : they all followed me many years ald le..c they grow up and then go in U...
JK : then ma should feel proud la...haha..no need sad ma...at least that proved u successfully bring them up wat...
*i wonder y feel sad..==" totally have no idea on what he is thinking....
JK : hmmm...how about the woon bin(another teacher which is younger) doing? is entered U ald??
TC : him ah??not yet lah...still waiting for the SPM july paper result...i worried the result will release late..i scared he will missed the intake...
JK : eh?got intake at this time meh?
TC : yea...got intake..september intake ma...
JK : ooo..okay...so which college is he going in??
* here comes the sacarstic part..=.="
TC : college?hahaha...i am a bit greedy la..i want them to enter university..at least it sounds better...
*well..i think if u can really study, no matter where also the same la...=.=" colleges and university almost studying the same thing..=="
JK : ooo...haha...then which U you planning to send them?
TC : at 1st i tot of UTAR...but UTAR not really that good...
JK : oo..actually TARC also ok ma...the fees still considerable ma...
TC : u dun be angry ah...not to talk bad bout TARC la...TARC is a bad college rite??alot of bad students 1 rite?
JK : erm...yea...there are alots of bad students...but still depends ma...cannot say all are bad 1...
* damn! really an anti-TARC bastard...=.=" i m TARCian as well la...m i bad??think before you talk dude...as far as i know TARC is quite a good college wei..only those students who always fool around, nvr take serious in studies, copy-cats and those lala ppl spoil the reputation only ma...
TC : UTAR n TARC ah...produce quality students so what??when apply job that time when they see your cert is from either UTAR o TARC ah...sure damn low the pay...nah..like my cert from OUM is different...
JK : ooo...ok..(=.="choose to not 2 argue wif him...somehow somewhat, he is my boss...let him boost)
TC : u see ah...UTAR n TARC cert are not recognised by the gov. u know??like my OUM (open university malaysia..my gosh.. :S) is recognise by the gov 1...so har, when u apply for job hor, also easier...
JK : yea..thats true...get recognised is easier 1 ma...
TC : so got quality so what??haha...u c like me..haha...
JK : ahahaha...(jerk..=.=")
* as if i dunno what kind of place is OUM..=.= really lousy to be frank....only those who really damn weak are suitable to go in...
TC : actually right, OUM lecturer suck u noe...when puasa ah...they said they feel sleepy n they end the classs...somemore hor assignment u got submit n he said everyone will get A...he really do so...
JK : wa...like that oso can ah??
TC : we all got online discussion 1 ma...u go in 10 times then got marks ald...
JK : ooo...then how much is the fees??
TC : 10k only..
JK : 10k??straight up to degree level ah??
TC : if u wan degree then have to do another 1.5 years lo...actually OUM is good...like u all graduated ald ah..surely owe ptptn money ma...OUM different...u can work and study as well..
JK : ooo...yea...but i personally thinks that study n doing part time is not really good for our studies la...like engineering course surely die 1...haha...
TC : actually i encourage my students go for business admin....
JK : oooo...then ok la...
then i left and drive home...damn...the way he talk is totally one sided thinking man...well..whatever la...i mind my own business then ok ald...haha...
Friday, September 11, 2009
the night is so alone
the night is so alone, he realize now that why he love the night so much.
in the night, everyone are in their slumber land.
the night is silent.
many things are running in his mind.
he thinks back the things he done before.
every single moment,
every single mistake,
every single stupidity act he had done,
every single sin he committed,
he feels like breaking down.
yet, he cant do so.
he worried if he really broke down one day,
how is he going to walk the road when the sun rises?
he keep for himself.
where no one could ever get to know.
when the night become more silent,
he slowly realized that,
he actually done nothing but bring sorrow to the one he loved.
he is a fool.
the biggest fool in the world.
he just hope that he could be a better man when the sun rises.
in the night, everyone are in their slumber land.
the night is silent.
many things are running in his mind.
he thinks back the things he done before.
every single moment,
every single mistake,
every single stupidity act he had done,
every single sin he committed,
he feels like breaking down.
yet, he cant do so.
he worried if he really broke down one day,
how is he going to walk the road when the sun rises?
he keep for himself.
where no one could ever get to know.
when the night become more silent,
he slowly realized that,
he actually done nothing but bring sorrow to the one he loved.
he is a fool.
the biggest fool in the world.
he just hope that he could be a better man when the sun rises.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
when tears fall from a guy
when he is hurt,
he will still smile and stand up,
tell the one he love everything is all right;
when he is under pressure,
he will still bare with it,
go through those hard time, with a smile;
no tears will fall, no one will have to worry;
when tears fall from him,
this means,
the one he dear,
the one he appreciate,
the one that he truly love,
had left them;
but,
he chose to cried alone in the night.
he will still smile and stand up,
tell the one he love everything is all right;
when he is under pressure,
he will still bare with it,
go through those hard time, with a smile;
no tears will fall, no one will have to worry;
when tears fall from him,
this means,
the one he dear,
the one he appreciate,
the one that he truly love,
had left them;
but,
he chose to cried alone in the night.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
i cant breathe!!!><
recently, i could barely get myself out of my busy routine..=.= thanks to TARC SOT office...provide us some real nice timetable..=.=
lately there have been tons of assignments piling up...the worst thing was most of the assignments' due date fell on the same week... o..o!! omg!! so far for now 2 assignments had been done...phew..but left 4 more assignment! >< manufacturing process, maths, applied engineering science and C++ programming...=.= argh...headache!! those 2 assignment that had been done are engineering materials and industrial automation and CAM...both of these subjects' assignments are crazy..=.= the content inside is hard to find...really have a hard time when doing this 2 assignment...but luckily math and C++ will be submit on nid of august..=.=where manufacturing process and applied engineering science need to be submited this end of month...argh!!!!!!!!!!!!
really hate it!!damn the MQA!! so troublesome!!!damn the SOT!!make the timetable so 'nice'!!=.= haiz..but no choice..this is my final year for diploma...need 2 graduate ma...thats y so troublesome...damn...just hope that i ll go throught these damn things quickly and then i can start revising my studies...
lately there have been tons of assignments piling up...the worst thing was most of the assignments' due date fell on the same week... o..o!! omg!! so far for now 2 assignments had been done...phew..but left 4 more assignment! >< manufacturing process, maths, applied engineering science and C++ programming...=.= argh...headache!! those 2 assignment that had been done are engineering materials and industrial automation and CAM...both of these subjects' assignments are crazy..=.= the content inside is hard to find...really have a hard time when doing this 2 assignment...but luckily math and C++ will be submit on nid of august..=.=where manufacturing process and applied engineering science need to be submited this end of month...argh!!!!!!!!!!!!
really hate it!!damn the MQA!! so troublesome!!!damn the SOT!!make the timetable so 'nice'!!=.= haiz..but no choice..this is my final year for diploma...need 2 graduate ma...thats y so troublesome...damn...just hope that i ll go throught these damn things quickly and then i can start revising my studies...
Friday, June 19, 2009
life is just like waves
its been ages i had never update my blog here...kinda busy due to my brilliant SOT scheduling for my course..-.- i could barely grasp some air for myself...but at least now i m free..XD ever since i saw my 2nd year diploma course timetable, i knew that this sem i m in hell...its just like a drastic drop from a place which so high...and i fell so pain..=.= OMG! this sem i got some great lecturer and some granny grade lecturer aka na mo po..haha...can talk for nonsense for quite some time only start class...XD...
lately i was quite tired due to the stupid timetable..thanks to that, i need 2 wake up at 8 almost every morning...and back home at late evening...=.=when i reach home, is already 7 at nite..-.- argh!! gonna freak out!! subjects for this sem were tough...no that moderate level anymore...gosh!
lately,i observed people around me...some were like weather-unpredictable, some were like geek,some like to show off and act cute, some kiasu(s), some religious freak that keep on drag you to church o some so called "temple"...oh man! give me a break! be like weather is not mean that not good...but look around man...there are so many great things around! just opoen up your eyes big enough to look around! being sad brings nothing and eventually won't gain you anything...the only thing you ll get is either you ll be damn depressed or you ll feel this world is like rejecting you...come on! get a life! sitting down there and depressed all the time is no use...no problem can solve without action...if the problem could be solve like that...i think everyone will be just sit down there and wait for the solution..then Newton's 3rd Law means nothing anymore. Action and reaction thats what i wanted to mention here...
well for those kiasu(s) and religious freak, i m so sick of those attitude...kiasu(s) eventually kiasu in every aspect...in studies, entertainment n other stuff...argh!! just so sick of these kind of people! so kiasu for what? in a competition, if there is a winner there will be tons loser...and winner aint always stay at their throne... loser aint always stay at the bottom...someday after putting effort and training, you ll improve...fear to be losers? to me...i m have no fear to be a loser...be a loser i can know where are my weaknesses...if always stay on top, do u know where your weaknesses at? if 1 day you fell off from your throne, you go 2 suicide just because you are not the winner anymore? just plain stupidity if they chosen to end their life...
those who like to show off and act cute, i really hate it...there got timing to show off and act cute..please! dont do it all the time...it makes people going to vomit dude! when a leader which dont act like a leader but act like a hero; when a leader who cant differentiate what's important and what's not; when a leader who cant differentiate what's official matter and private matter, they dont deserve to be leader...i will just simply ask them to get their ass out of it! dont ever claim that you are a leader which will bring great changes to the society when you are just a plain childish fella..
as far as my concern, i had never seen any buddhist which will call other people to go to some so called "temple" to worship...if people wanted to worship, they got their own legs to travel to the temple they wish to go...no use to keep on telling others to join in your "temple". i m a buddhist as well...but i dont ever did that to others because i knew that not all people have the same thinking of mine...the more you ask people to join you, the more i feel that it is not the way of a buddhist behave..it is no difference with those ajaran sesat...i m so sick of these kind of people..but i know that christian will definitely ask you to go church...i can accept that..but please...dont ever tried to drag me in if i ignore once already...you ask me again, you ll get a surprise..=)
humans are just like waves...some were high up and some were at the lowest bottom...some were at the middle of nowhere...just be what you are and just be happy and look forward la...there are so much good things ahead..dont fear to be a loser...kiasu wont gain you anything...be a religious freak is not a sin...but please dont ever annoy other ppl la....ppl will sick of your action and everything you did...just dont be so radical...and for the childish 1..i got ntg to say lah...stay whatever and wherever you are...
lately i was quite tired due to the stupid timetable..thanks to that, i need 2 wake up at 8 almost every morning...and back home at late evening...=.=when i reach home, is already 7 at nite..-.- argh!! gonna freak out!! subjects for this sem were tough...no that moderate level anymore...gosh!
lately,i observed people around me...some were like weather-unpredictable, some were like geek,some like to show off and act cute, some kiasu(s), some religious freak that keep on drag you to church o some so called "temple"...oh man! give me a break! be like weather is not mean that not good...but look around man...there are so many great things around! just opoen up your eyes big enough to look around! being sad brings nothing and eventually won't gain you anything...the only thing you ll get is either you ll be damn depressed or you ll feel this world is like rejecting you...come on! get a life! sitting down there and depressed all the time is no use...no problem can solve without action...if the problem could be solve like that...i think everyone will be just sit down there and wait for the solution..then Newton's 3rd Law means nothing anymore. Action and reaction thats what i wanted to mention here...
well for those kiasu(s) and religious freak, i m so sick of those attitude...kiasu(s) eventually kiasu in every aspect...in studies, entertainment n other stuff...argh!! just so sick of these kind of people! so kiasu for what? in a competition, if there is a winner there will be tons loser...and winner aint always stay at their throne... loser aint always stay at the bottom...someday after putting effort and training, you ll improve...fear to be losers? to me...i m have no fear to be a loser...be a loser i can know where are my weaknesses...if always stay on top, do u know where your weaknesses at? if 1 day you fell off from your throne, you go 2 suicide just because you are not the winner anymore? just plain stupidity if they chosen to end their life...
those who like to show off and act cute, i really hate it...there got timing to show off and act cute..please! dont do it all the time...it makes people going to vomit dude! when a leader which dont act like a leader but act like a hero; when a leader who cant differentiate what's important and what's not; when a leader who cant differentiate what's official matter and private matter, they dont deserve to be leader...i will just simply ask them to get their ass out of it! dont ever claim that you are a leader which will bring great changes to the society when you are just a plain childish fella..
as far as my concern, i had never seen any buddhist which will call other people to go to some so called "temple" to worship...if people wanted to worship, they got their own legs to travel to the temple they wish to go...no use to keep on telling others to join in your "temple". i m a buddhist as well...but i dont ever did that to others because i knew that not all people have the same thinking of mine...the more you ask people to join you, the more i feel that it is not the way of a buddhist behave..it is no difference with those ajaran sesat...i m so sick of these kind of people..but i know that christian will definitely ask you to go church...i can accept that..but please...dont ever tried to drag me in if i ignore once already...you ask me again, you ll get a surprise..=)
humans are just like waves...some were high up and some were at the lowest bottom...some were at the middle of nowhere...just be what you are and just be happy and look forward la...there are so much good things ahead..dont fear to be a loser...kiasu wont gain you anything...be a religious freak is not a sin...but please dont ever annoy other ppl la....ppl will sick of your action and everything you did...just dont be so radical...and for the childish 1..i got ntg to say lah...stay whatever and wherever you are...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
fair and square?
today, i m hereby to write something regarding the taekwondo....i m a practicer of ITF taekwondo...today, i just went for the National Taekwondo Tournament which organized by the gombak district taekwondo association...from what i saw today, i was serious opened my eyes...wow!! the judgement for the pattern was so many style..and the praticer also did a lots of different style...the style i meant here was the way they do the pattern...some of them do it extremely slow, some kick high, some kick low, some got no rythm and lots more...
well, i will just say i lost my black belt pattern competition..this is not mean that i m not satisfy that i m lost...but i m not satisfy with the judgement of the judges!! i m criticizing...honest speaking here...from what i saw, most of the judges seems to be quite into GTF style pattern...well they really do it in a very powerful way, that i must have to admit it...but wait! judges..please, open your eyes...see it thoroughly..then only make your decision!!!who deserve the win!!!
as from what i have learnt, especially from master choi's 1 day seminar on 2007 if i not mistaken, i have been taught that in a pattern must consist of 5 important factors...
1.) Power
2.) Rythm
3.) Breathing Control
4.) Balancing
5.) Stance
with this 5 factors, thats only the perfect pattern could be done! my dear JUDGES! did you learn that? come on, you guys are above 2nd dan, i bet you guys should know it! right?? well, did you find this 5 factors in them? please make a good judgement! this is not a simply rise and drop the red and blue flag...if it can be done so simple, i would like to sit on the seat and do my judgement then...i just hope for a fair and square judgement! that's all! i admit my training wasn't enough to get a gold medal, but if i lost in a fair and square manner, i will take it open heartedly..like the previous year i did..yeah, i lost...i lost cause i forgotten my pattern...and i accept it..but this time, i seriously can't stand that i lost..i dare to say i could do far better than the 1 that i competing...
seminar course? i took it every year..did you?i m looking forward for master choi's seminar..if can i wish to follow my instructor when he having instructor courses...for today's pattern event, i seriously disappointed in it...especially on the judgement...
well, i will just say i lost my black belt pattern competition..this is not mean that i m not satisfy that i m lost...but i m not satisfy with the judgement of the judges!! i m criticizing...honest speaking here...from what i saw, most of the judges seems to be quite into GTF style pattern...well they really do it in a very powerful way, that i must have to admit it...but wait! judges..please, open your eyes...see it thoroughly..then only make your decision!!!who deserve the win!!!
as from what i have learnt, especially from master choi's 1 day seminar on 2007 if i not mistaken, i have been taught that in a pattern must consist of 5 important factors...
1.) Power
2.) Rythm
3.) Breathing Control
4.) Balancing
5.) Stance
with this 5 factors, thats only the perfect pattern could be done! my dear JUDGES! did you learn that? come on, you guys are above 2nd dan, i bet you guys should know it! right?? well, did you find this 5 factors in them? please make a good judgement! this is not a simply rise and drop the red and blue flag...if it can be done so simple, i would like to sit on the seat and do my judgement then...i just hope for a fair and square judgement! that's all! i admit my training wasn't enough to get a gold medal, but if i lost in a fair and square manner, i will take it open heartedly..like the previous year i did..yeah, i lost...i lost cause i forgotten my pattern...and i accept it..but this time, i seriously can't stand that i lost..i dare to say i could do far better than the 1 that i competing...
seminar course? i took it every year..did you?i m looking forward for master choi's seminar..if can i wish to follow my instructor when he having instructor courses...for today's pattern event, i seriously disappointed in it...especially on the judgement...
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