Nowhere To Go

inconsiderate people

2009-12-12T04:11:00.000-08:00

recently, i have found out that there are a lots of inconsiderate people around me...why do i said so? it is actually after my long observation the people around me, i have come to conclude that most of them can be categorized as the inconsiderate individuals.

first and foremost i would like to say that, this category of people can be found mostly on the road which they driving in their car comfortably..most of these individuals don't really care about the existence of the motorcyclist..their driving attitude can be shown when there are traffic jam on the road..as we all know, during traffic jam it is better for us to drive near to the bank of road..this is because this will ease the movement of the motorcyclist..but recently when i was on bike back from school, the drivers doesn't even bother the existence of motorcyclist...well what to do?inconsiderate people....other than that, when they try to change lane they give no signal...then what for to have the signal lights built in cars??at least put on signals when trying to change lane la..barbarians! got such high education so what? on the road like barbarians!

not just that, in my college also do have these kind of inconsiderate people...i still can clearly remember that on tuesday, when i walked into dk w and go to my usual place n try to sit down, there were still some of the junior in the lecture hall...then got 1 stupid junior stood on the chair...not just that, he start talking and like nobody business...he keep talking and started to walk on the chairs....i looked at him and started to say out loudly damn this stupid fella...does he have a brains??got such high education but act like an idiot...n his friend looked at me and after that keep on looking down and pack his bag...n he left the place quietly...

damn...why of these days got such lots of inconsiderate people??have they ever put themselves into other people's shoe??try to think the consequences on every act you have done...try to think of the people around you...

i ve come to realised

2009-11-06T00:59:00.000-08:00

after a long long time, i m up here again to write something...guess nothing is going right for the moment now....problems keep on arise in me....i dont feel myself anymore...i m so sick of myself now...i don't even know what to do...i m so lost now....and i've come to realised that, i m just a failure...

interesting conversation

2009-09-16T09:40:00.000-07:00

this incident happen on 16 sept around 940pm..i went in to another to find the answer book...there he started the conversation..

*TC indicates my boss
JK is me

TC : haiya...feel sad la..those form 5 students is leaving ald n going to university...
JK : why feel sad?should be proud ma...they all can go to U wo...
TC : they all followed me many years ald le..c they grow up and then go in U...
JK : then ma should feel proud la...haha..no need sad ma...at least that proved u successfully bring them up wat...

*i wonder y feel sad..==" totally have no idea on what he is thinking....

JK : hmmm...how about the woon bin(another teacher which is younger) doing? is entered U ald??
TC : him ah??not yet lah...still waiting for the SPM july paper result...i worried the result will release late..i scared he will missed the intake...
JK : eh?got intake at this time meh?
TC : yea...got intake..september intake ma...
JK : ooo..okay...so which college is he going in??

* here comes the sacarstic part..=.="

TC : college?hahaha...i am a bit greedy la..i want them to enter university..at least it sounds better...

*well..i think if u can really study, no matter where also the same la...=.=" colleges and university almost studying the same thing..=="

JK : ooo...haha...then which U you planning to send them?
TC : at 1st i tot of UTAR...but UTAR not really that good...
JK : oo..actually TARC also ok ma...the fees still considerable ma...
TC : u dun be angry ah...not to talk bad bout TARC la...TARC is a bad college rite??alot of bad students 1 rite?
JK : erm...yea...there are alots of bad students...but still depends ma...cannot say all are bad 1...

* damn! really an anti-TARC bastard...=.=" i m TARCian as well la...m i bad??think before you talk dude...as far as i know TARC is quite a good college wei..only those students who always fool around, nvr take serious in studies, copy-cats and those lala ppl spoil the reputation only ma...

TC : UTAR n TARC ah...produce quality students so what??when apply job that time when they see your cert is from either UTAR o TARC ah...sure damn low the pay...nah..like my cert from OUM is different...

JK : ooo...ok..(=.="choose to not 2 argue wif him...somehow somewhat, he is my boss...let him boost)

TC : u see ah...UTAR n TARC cert are not recognised by the gov. u know??like my OUM (open university malaysia..my gosh.. :S) is recognise by the gov 1...so har, when u apply for job hor, also easier...
JK : yea..thats true...get recognised is easier 1 ma...

TC : so got quality so what??haha...u c like me..haha...
JK : ahahaha...(jerk..=.=")

* as if i dunno what kind of place is OUM..=.= really lousy to be frank....only those who really damn weak are suitable to go in...

TC : actually right, OUM lecturer suck u noe...when puasa ah...they said they feel sleepy n they end the classs...somemore hor assignment u got submit n he said everyone will get A...he really do so...
JK : wa...like that oso can ah??
TC : we all got online discussion 1 ma...u go in 10 times then got marks ald...
JK : ooo...then how much is the fees??
TC : 10k only..
JK : 10k??straight up to degree level ah??
TC : if u wan degree then have to do another 1.5 years lo...actually OUM is good...like u all graduated ald ah..surely owe ptptn money ma...OUM different...u can work and study as well..
JK : ooo...yea...but i personally thinks that study n doing part time is not really good for our studies la...like engineering course surely die 1...haha...
TC : actually i encourage my students go for business admin....
JK : oooo...then ok la...

then i left and drive home...damn...the way he talk is totally one sided thinking man...well..whatever la...i mind my own business then ok ald...haha...

the night is so alone

2009-09-11T11:24:00.000-07:00

the night is so alone, he realize now that why he love the night so much.
in the night, everyone are in their slumber land.
the night is silent.
many things are running in his mind.
he thinks back the things he done before.

every single moment,
every single mistake,
every single stupidity act he had done,
every single sin he committed,
he feels like breaking down.
yet, he cant do so.
he worried if he really broke down one day,
how is he going to walk the road when the sun rises?
he keep for himself.
where no one could ever get to know.

when the night become more silent,
he slowly realized that,
he actually done nothing but bring sorrow to the one he loved.
he is a fool.
the biggest fool in the world.

he just hope that he could be a better man when the sun rises.

when tears fall from a guy

2009-09-06T07:42:00.000-07:00

when he is hurt,
he will still smile and stand up,
tell the one he love everything is all right;

when he is under pressure,
he will still bare with it,
go through those hard time, with a smile;

no tears will fall, no one will have to worry;

when tears fall from him,
this means,
the one he dear,
the one he appreciate,
the one that he truly love,
had left them;

but,
he chose to cried alone in the night.

i cant breathe!!!><

2009-07-19T07:36:00.000-07:00

recently, i could barely get myself out of my busy routine..=.= thanks to TARC SOT office...provide us some real nice timetable..=.=

lately there have been tons of assignments piling up...the worst thing was most of the assignments' due date fell on the same week... o..o!! omg!! so far for now 2 assignments had been done...phew..but left 4 more assignment! >< manufacturing process, maths, applied engineering science and C++ programming...=.= argh...headache!! those 2 assignment that had been done are engineering materials and industrial automation and CAM...both of these subjects' assignments are crazy..=.= the content inside is hard to find...really have a hard time when doing this 2 assignment...but luckily math and C++ will be submit on nid of august..=.=where manufacturing process and applied engineering science need to be submited this end of month...argh!!!!!!!!!!!!

really hate it!!damn the MQA!! so troublesome!!!damn the SOT!!make the timetable so 'nice'!!=.= haiz..but no choice..this is my final year for diploma...need 2 graduate ma...thats y so troublesome...damn...just hope that i ll go throught these damn things quickly and then i can start revising my studies...

life is just like waves

2009-06-19T08:10:00.000-07:00

its been ages i had never update my blog here...kinda busy due to my brilliant SOT scheduling for my course..-.- i could barely grasp some air for myself...but at least now i m free..XD ever since i saw my 2nd year diploma course timetable, i knew that this sem i m in hell...its just like a drastic drop from a place which so high...and i fell so pain..=.= OMG! this sem i got some great lecturer and some granny grade lecturer aka na mo po..haha...can talk for nonsense for quite some time only start class...XD...

lately i was quite tired due to the stupid timetable..thanks to that, i need 2 wake up at 8 almost every morning...and back home at late evening...=.=when i reach home, is already 7 at nite..-.- argh!! gonna freak out!! subjects for this sem were tough...no that moderate level anymore...gosh!

lately,i observed people around me...some were like weather-unpredictable, some were like geek,some like to show off and act cute, some kiasu(s), some religious freak that keep on drag you to church o some so called "temple"...oh man! give me a break! be like weather is not mean that not good...but look around man...there are so many great things around! just opoen up your eyes big enough to look around! being sad brings nothing and eventually won't gain you anything...the only thing you ll get is either you ll be damn depressed or you ll feel this world is like rejecting you...come on! get a life! sitting down there and depressed all the time is no use...no problem can solve without action...if the problem could be solve like that...i think everyone will be just sit down there and wait for the solution..then Newton's 3rd Law means nothing anymore. Action and reaction thats what i wanted to mention here...

well for those kiasu(s) and religious freak, i m so sick of those attitude...kiasu(s) eventually kiasu in every aspect...in studies, entertainment n other stuff...argh!! just so sick of these kind of people! so kiasu for what? in a competition, if there is a winner there will be tons loser...and winner aint always stay at their throne... loser aint always stay at the bottom...someday after putting effort and training, you ll improve...fear to be losers? to me...i m have no fear to be a loser...be a loser i can know where are my weaknesses...if always stay on top, do u know where your weaknesses at? if 1 day you fell off from your throne, you go 2 suicide just because you are not the winner anymore? just plain stupidity if they chosen to end their life...

those who like to show off and act cute, i really hate it...there got timing to show off and act cute..please! dont do it all the time...it makes people going to vomit dude! when a leader which dont act like a leader but act like a hero; when a leader who cant differentiate what's important and what's not; when a leader who cant differentiate what's official matter and private matter, they dont deserve to be leader...i will just simply ask them to get their ass out of it! dont ever claim that you are a leader which will bring great changes to the society when you are just a plain childish fella..

as far as my concern, i had never seen any buddhist which will call other people to go to some so called "temple" to worship...if people wanted to worship, they got their own legs to travel to the temple they wish to go...no use to keep on telling others to join in your "temple". i m a buddhist as well...but i dont ever did that to others because i knew that not all people have the same thinking of mine...the more you ask people to join you, the more i feel that it is not the way of a buddhist behave..it is no difference with those ajaran sesat...i m so sick of these kind of people..but i know that christian will definitely ask you to go church...i can accept that..but please...dont ever tried to drag me in if i ignore once already...you ask me again, you ll get a surprise..=)

humans are just like waves...some were high up and some were at the lowest bottom...some were at the middle of nowhere...just be what you are and just be happy and look forward la...there are so much good things ahead..dont fear to be a loser...kiasu wont gain you anything...be a religious freak is not a sin...but please dont ever annoy other ppl la....ppl will sick of your action and everything you did...just dont be so radical...and for the childish 1..i got ntg to say lah...stay whatever and wherever you are...

fair and square?

2009-05-16T07:12:00.000-07:00

today, i m hereby to write something regarding the taekwondo....i m a practicer of ITF taekwondo...today, i just went for the National Taekwondo Tournament which organized by the gombak district taekwondo association...from what i saw today, i was serious opened my eyes...wow!! the judgement for the pattern was so many style..and the praticer also did a lots of different style...the style i meant here was the way they do the pattern...some of them do it extremely slow, some kick high, some kick low, some got no rythm and lots more...

well, i will just say i lost my black belt pattern competition..this is not mean that i m not satisfy that i m lost...but i m not satisfy with the judgement of the judges!! i m criticizing...honest speaking here...from what i saw, most of the judges seems to be quite into GTF style pattern...well they really do it in a very powerful way, that i must have to admit it...but wait! judges..please, open your eyes...see it thoroughly..then only make your decision!!!who deserve the win!!!

as from what i have learnt, especially from master choi's 1 day seminar on 2007 if i not mistaken, i have been taught that in a pattern must consist of 5 important factors...

1.) Power
2.) Rythm
3.) Breathing Control
4.) Balancing
5.) Stance

with this 5 factors, thats only the perfect pattern could be done! my dear JUDGES! did you learn that? come on, you guys are above 2nd dan, i bet you guys should know it! right?? well, did you find this 5 factors in them? please make a good judgement! this is not a simply rise and drop the red and blue flag...if it can be done so simple, i would like to sit on the seat and do my judgement then...i just hope for a fair and square judgement! that's all! i admit my training wasn't enough to get a gold medal, but if i lost in a fair and square manner, i will take it open heartedly..like the previous year i did..yeah, i lost...i lost cause i forgotten my pattern...and i accept it..but this time, i seriously can't stand that i lost..i dare to say i could do far better than the 1 that i competing...

seminar course? i took it every year..did you?i m looking forward for master choi's seminar..if can i wish to follow my instructor when he having instructor courses...for today's pattern event, i seriously disappointed in it...especially on the judgement...

final exam!!

2009-04-13T06:47:00.000-07:00

holy mama!! next week-20th april 2009!! is my final exam week..damn...this short sem was really fast..>.<" 1st subject was stupid tamadun islam..haiz...boring...then wednesday-22th april is going to be my bm paper and lastly on friday 24th april, is my math III paper...>.<" haiz...then my dear is going back on early may le...=( cant celebrate birthday wif my dear le o..=(

memories^^

2009-03-14T08:53:00.000-07:00

memories, are just like the puzzle..they are all over in our mind...and sometimes, when we did something similar like the olden days, the memories will be back into our mind again...haha...how nostalgic..=)

well..yesterday, i went out wif my girl to sg wang to hang out..haha...as we return from time square to sg wang, we bought a cotton candy on the way back to sg wang..^^ hehe...i feels like back to my childhood days..=) i remembered that i ate before once...haha..just once when i was still small..=) and my girl insisting me to buy cos she wanted to eat as well..hehe..so we bought it..^^ we bought apple flavour cotton candy^^ hehe..we eat all along the way back 2 klcc..=P it was nice 2 eat smt that we had not eaten for a very very long time...haha..i think that was about 12 years ago o even more i had not eaten it...haha..well..it was really nice..^^

small kid shan shan^^

small kid keat keat^^

the candy really brings back memories..=)

new semester gonna start soon^^

2009-02-23T06:42:00.000-08:00

ahhh~~ its been a long time i had never update my blog at here..hehe..i was moderating another blog of mine..=P the link?? nah...not meant to be said over here..=P that's just for my dear to read..hehe...well..actually ntg much here...just that 3rd semester gonna start real soon..=) in just 1 week time...O.o..3rd sem just 7 weeks!!! then i've completed my 1st year^^ hehe..but still got 3 more years to complete my studies to advance diploma..and i m looking forward to go to london!! haha..i hope me and my dear can go at the same time^^

talking bout 3rd sem, there are just 3 subjects...math III, BM n tamadun islam dan asia...=.="great!=.=" tamadun islam dan asia again...feel like going to vomit ler..i tot i've leave the world of history...but..its coming back..damn it! =.= well..i think this sem is a bonus semester..coz i i really study well..my gpa will increase and helping me to increase my overall cgpa..hehe...so no matter how..study hard!!!!

3rd sem i got alot of plan i wan to carry out..^^ hehe...i wan to spend my time wif my dear...and of cos study as well la..hehe..so i just hope on 7th march, i hope to see my gpa is around 3.5.. >m<" cant really hope much ler...cos i was hospitalised for 2 weeks last sem..so i was abit left out..well..just hope for the best..=)

I need her

2009-01-24T07:41:00.000-08:00

Ever since the day i met her again,
I fell in love with her slowly,
Until I have become her loves one,
I know that I couldn't live without her.

She is my sunshine,
She is my strength,
She gave me hope,
She gave me salvation.

If I ever lost her,
I know I would lost myself,
I couldn't imagine the day without her,
I dare not to think what I will become.

I miss her angelic voice,
I can't stop myself thinking about her,
I am addicted to her smile,
I need her to be at my side.

And of course,
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR..=)
I need you all the time..=)

Lifeless without you with me...

2008-12-27T00:19:00.000-08:00

ahhh..its Saturday again...usually my saturday will be filled with activities but somehow today was a bit different..i never went to taekwondo training due laziness..haha..so i went down to midvalley..its been quite awhile i went there..i went there just to buy the weight that put onto leg as i want to start my foot work training...well..obviously im not going out wif my pretty girl..cos she having class today..i really missed her badly..=(

day without her is just something like this
everything i saw..the colour is faded...standing at the station all alone..

the beautiful christmas decoration at the center court of midvalley seems to be not perfect without her taking picture with me..

and i m missing you my dear..

Wonderful day..=)

2008-12-22T04:31:00.000-08:00

on sunday(21oct08), my bro suggested to go FRIM to have a morning walk at there..so the day before i informed my lovely girl and i hope she would come along as well..=) and yeah..she joined us..^^ so we went there about 9 morning..

after parking the car, we started our walk at FRIM..haha..actually we planned to find the canopy walk..but we end up walk to the wrong way...haha..the most funny thing was..after we walk for about 4km, we actually end up walking back to the place where we parked our car..haha..sounds really silly..=P

well..at least we did walk..haha..then we go further in by car..lol..we reach to the parit fall which is really a parit n it does falls..XD..so we enter further in...we walk up to the parit fall to find the canopy walk but the canopy walk is located in the jungle which require a guide to bring us in..so we chose not to go in..then we have our break..and we all also took some pictures over there^^

The parit fall

this is my lovely girl..^^

haha..just to fool around..=P

after we finish our trip at FRIM, we were then proceed to kepong jusco..we have our lunch at the red door restaurant...me and her were sharing the cheese baked rice n iced peach tea..haha..the food there was nice...^^then we went to watch Ip Man..haha..this show is about the wing chun master..he is also known as Bruce lee's master...and of course, this show was superb!

last but not least, evening tea..haha..after watching the movie, we were then went to the arena in jusco to have our evening tea...^^

at arena when evening tea..=P

what she is doing?lol..i m curious..=P

^^..my sweetheart and me..^^

at about 6pm, i sent her back 2 hostel and thats call for the day..^^..i was really having a wonderful day went outing wif her..^^

冬至节~~

2008-12-19T21:11:00.000-08:00

今天呢，我婆婆在pasar pagi买了糯米粉来弄汤圆。。因为明天是冬至节了~~^^v。。哈哈。。中午时，我婆婆说要弄汤圆吃了。。所以我就帮忙她搓汤圆。。哈哈。。真得很久没搓汤圆了^^感觉超爽的。。=P 因为能玩嘛。。嘻嘻。。能够搓出各种各样的汤圆。。=P

这是我其中一个杰作。。=P

搓汤圆真的很好玩。。哈哈。。记得我小时候，每当我搓出不同形状的汤圆时，我的婆婆都会骂我。。=P 说了是汤圆，就是要圆的嘛。。干吗搓四方的？哈哈。。都是为了贪爽咯。。刚刚我搓汤圆的时候呢，我想起了我的女朋友。。^^。。就搓出了她的名字。。=P 然后有错我的名字。。嘻嘻。。

^^Keat

~LOVE~

YiShan^^

哈哈。。。这是我的杰作。。=P。。搓了汤圆当然也少不得吃啦。。嘻嘻。。

这是我的汤圆~^^

嘻嘻。。我的大便型汤圆。。=P

a new start of mine..=)

2008-12-19T18:22:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since i last updated my blog over here...and today i have something to write out over here..=)

after 619 misery days of mine, i finally found the source to make me step forward and move again..=) its been a long long time i've been searching for what i really wanted all these time..and now i have found what i really wanted for so long..=) once again i met another angel in my life which gave me the strength to move forward...i think she did more than that, she became part of my life as well..

she is as important as my family and my life..and i really hope that she will not leave me alone..because i know that if i lose her, i ll lost myself as well..

from the day we both be together, i told myself, i will love her, protect her, care for her with all i could..=)

1 day 4 times??

2008-11-17T07:06:00.000-08:00

its been quite some time i'd never update my blog over here..lol..

WARNING!

alright..the blog today might contain some gross and disgusting stuff/words..lol..so please if you dun wanna continue it, please just end it..XD this blog is related to shit..XD

alright..i ll just start off with this morning...this morning, i was having a bowl of rice as my breakfast at 6..after i finished it, of course my stomach started 2 work..haha..erm..so i just went to toilet at 630 to drop out the "bomb" then continue wif my shower..ok..i ll describe about the drop i left in the toilet bowl..XD the drops were all slim and yellow-brownish in colour...it was soft those soft type yet abit dry..so when i try 2 squeeze it out, is kind of pain..lol..somehow i manage to release quite alot this morning..haha...

then at college i wasnt ate after my breakfast..so at about 215, my stomach started to ache..i think its gastric ba..so after class at 330, i rushed to the nearby shop to eat my lunch...ah~~ after having smt to fill my stomach i felt much better..the ache was slowly reduce..then back to home..i was having the stomachache sensation again...=.=..before dinner i go drop some bomb again..hmm..about the condition of the drops at that time i cant really remember..lol...nvm..skip it..

after that, my mum make me apple juice..so i drank it..then again..stomachache..gonna head for war at toilet..haha....this time was not the solid drops..in fact,its acid drops..=.= damn..just like pumping water out from the body only..once i sat on the toilet bowl seat, the valve opened..those acid drop flows in high pressure..wow..really pain in the ass..damn.=.=..the acid drops was yellowish yet bring some brownish colour..lol...those pieces of drops were so fine..haha...as if just blended at the blender..XD you know those fruit after blending??its just smt like tat but added wif watter...haha...

then i was being called for duty again..lol..location at toilet..haha..the fourth round was the same thing...argh..water blended drops...damn...i hate this kind of drops man...it will never ends...-, -until just now i still felt there is still smt left in my stomach..haha..mayb later in the midnight emergency call and head for it again..lol..

i guess i wont write any longer...cos most of the reader might feel wan to vomit now..haha...and i more thing..sorry ya...i posted something so disgusting over here..lol...

people in our life

2008-10-24T10:44:00.000-07:00

after i had done my jaw surgery last wednesday, i am having some thoughts to share over here..i was hospitalize for 7 days..those days were really hard for me as i couldnt eat, drink, walk, o talk..i was on the bed..everything were done by nurses and sometimes when my family came to visit me, they ll do it for me..i realise that, in our life, we really cannot live without family and friends...

when i was still in ward, there is an uncle opposite my bed..he always talk 2 me..so that i dont felt boring over the day...he is a nice guy...so i m here to said that friends is really important in our life to communicate with..without them, our life will be very dull...

here is a little story about 3 friends...

there were 3 brothers who always played together since they met each other...so one day, one of them was like disappeared for quite some times..when he came back, he put a bad name on one of his brothers because of something minor...soon the remaining 2 of them were sad and disappointed on what he had done...he couldnt trust his own brothers where he used to played with and grow up along..he rather chose someone that he knew a few month o mayb just a year to trust..what about his childhood brothers??which he'd knew them better and they knew him deep enough...the 2 of his brothers helped him out alot but in the end he turned back on them...

well, the moral of this story is don't put a bad name your own friend that know every single detail on you..the friend that really care about you isn't easy to find..a true friend is hard to find...do you wish to put an end on the friendship that you used years and years to built up because of a broken relationship with your girlfriend??think about it!

they help you out so much when you are deep down in ur sadness...they worked so hard to pull you out from the dark, why don't you just cant see it?? these people in our life is called the real life angel...they safe you from the dark, guide you when you are lost, cheer you when you are sad...this kind of friend is really hard to find when come out to community one day...appreciate them before they say goodbye to you...

i believe that when we are deep in trouble there are just two person will not leave us...first and foremost, our parents..second, our real life angel- true friends....these are the people will work hard to get us stand on our own feet again!! keep that in mind..

if you insist to stay deep down and ignore everything, then you'll lost everything in your life...so make your own choice...

青苔吉他

2008-10-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

歌曲：青苔歌手：Ｊａｍｅｓ
４／４

C G C
爱剩墙角那一块

Ｆ　　　　Ａｍ　Ｅｍ　　　Ｃ　　　　
渴望被理睬　低等的姿态

Ａｍ　　　　　　Ｇ
只为了等待　而存在

Ｆ　　　　　　　Ｇ　
我不算太坏　却被拒在门外

Ｆ　　　　　　　 G
潮湿的地带　你让我离不开

C Am
爱你的青苔　花怎么开

Ｆ　　　　　　　 G
没资格覆盖　你的心海

Em Em F
活在阴霾　我又不是祸害

F C Am F
只不过是深深　爱着你的人

G 　 C
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my dental surgery experience

2008-10-20T04:02:00.000-07:00

hey there...after 7 days staying at hospital sg buloh, i finally get my dental surgery done..first of all, i will explain why i m going to do such surgery and the experiences i went trough these 7 tough days..
not to forget, i need to thank the dentists and surgeon that done my surgery:-
Dr Kok(surgeon),
Dr Kasmah(surgeon) ,
Dr Melissa(dentist),
Dr Maslina(dentist) and
one more pretty malay lady dentist( sorry that i don't know her name)

first of all, u all might ask me why i go to make myself suffer to do the dental surgery right? where actually i decided to do such surgery because it was suggested by my orthodontic (braces) dentist..he said that my lower jaw bone wasn't grow to side way but way down..so after i did my braces, my teeth all were aligned..but now there was a really obvious changes that was my lower jaw is longer than my upper jaw..and i having tough time to bite the food that are kinda elastic, and when i talked also cant pronounce properly..this was because i have a gap about 5mm when both upper and lower jaw bite together..and the other factor that drives me to do this surgery because my dad had paid so much to get me done my teeth, so i just wanted it to be complete so that it will be not wasted...so my dentist referred me to sg buloh government hospital...

my surgery was actually scheduled to be done on this april but due to some emergency cases, i had been delayed until today..so i was admitted to ward on 14Oct08, and discharged on today 20Oct08..my surgery was scheduled on 15Oct08 at 1130 am..i went down to the operation theater at that particular time..and i have a really cool and chilling sleep in the theater for about 1 hour, then only pushed me into the operation room for surgery...i was shivering when i first pushed into the waiting area...the air cond was so cold and i just have their operation clothes and a blanket..><"

during operation, i couldn't tell much as i had been given general anaesthetic..i was unconscious and totally don't know what happening from 1pm until 930 pm...after that period, i regained my consciousness, i felt like vomiting ,numbness at my lower jaw, muscle around my lower cheek and my lips..when i regained a bit of consciousness, i knew that i was given oxygen supply, checking BP, body temperature and beeping sound from machine that was about my heartbeat..

when i woke up, i was unable to wake up, i felt that i was too heavy to move around..then my family came, they showed me the picture after my surgery..wow..it was totally a different person compared to the one before surgery..my face was swelled..just like a pig head...haha...they have a drainage tube and sodium chloride for me...=.= the removing of drainage tube was really a horrible experience...terrible pain..>< i don't wish to recall it...so after surgery i cant eat, i cant talk i, cant drink..=.=..suffering..

until second day, they got me removed the drainage tube...>< then i was sent to dental department to fix my jaw muscle position that they had planned..another awful experience as well..even i felt numb, but i still felt slight pain around my mouth when they put elastic ring around my braces to fix my jaw muscle position..after putting that ring, i couldn't talk as it was really tight..after putting that, i manage to move my lips and able to drink some water with a small spoon...then my dripping sodium chloride was removed..ahhhh~~ much better...but when come to injecting the painkiller and antibiotic, really horrible..especially the painkiller..it gives more pain to my right arm where a hollow tube was poked into my vein..soon after 3 times injecting painkiller, i refused to take anymore as i will be dizzy after injecting that..

3rd day i was much better, and i started to drink more water, milo and the soya milk that they provided to me..and i m also able to walk around the ward and talk slowly..but when i saw other patient having rice in their mouth, i totally collapse...lol...i only could watch they eat but i just can drink fluid...T.T...i have been taking fluid until last nite when my parents visited me again..they brought me porridge..XD..yeah!! that's what i am been looking forward to eat..lol...even it was just plain porridge with some salty taste, it was really a great meal to me..i felt so filled up for the first time after i admitted to ward..lol..

and now i m discharged from ward, i could have my porridge now..i m so glad..soon i m looking forward for some chicken cream soup..lol...

PS: this blog will not provide you any image of my surgery..XD

PC repairing service

2008-10-06T07:29:00.000-07:00

hey guys!

Me and my brother are going to start a PC repairing service. If you have any problems in your pc or operating system corrupted, don't hesitate to find us! We will provide you the best service to you =) The charges are cheap compare to the other PC repairing centre.

you can contact us through MSN or through email..

coldfission_lol@hotmail.com (Jern Khang)

lightning_lal_10@hotmail.com (Me)

a new semester begins.=)

2008-10-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

after 2 weeks of holiday, i m once again back 2 college to begin my new semester..1st of all, this time my schedule were much more flexible and free..obviously i m damn happy and i really appreciated it..cause the last semester time table were really killing me..haha..so i was really glad to see my new time table..XD

today i have my 1st class for my new semester..basically nothing much to be taught..just one thing, my previous math lecturer(Mr.Chan) were changed..=( he was really a great lecturer..this time i got a young man(Mr.Ng) as my lecturer..good looking but boring class..-.-..makes me feel like going to sleep...argh..compare to my previous lecturer, he was really an old ginger..=D all his lecture classes were well prepared and organized..but this time i felt that my new lecturer kinda messed up..even without lecture notes, Mr Chan could conduct his lecture class well...but as this time, Mr Ng couldn't do that...his explanation is something like teleporting..=.=..it means that not really constant...sigh..i hope that Mr Chan was still my lecturer...

well...hopefully this semester i could do well..=)

fun at the court..nostalgic

2008-09-19T06:24:00.000-07:00

its been a long long time since i had fun at the basketball court with all old players..this evening i went to play with my bro..when we reach there, there were just a few of the kids playing over at the court..then 4 BRP5 players came..so we just have 2 matches with them..easy win and not fun at all..haiz...wish that i could back to those time where all of the ballers that we used to play with were here..but all of them have their own life already..=) i just missed those time cause it was really fun to play with them and were so much challenging..

nowadays, there were just a few of the juniors that can be said played well in basketball..about 6 zen arrive..so another game we had...this time a bit challenging as zen was once the top player among our gang...lol...i am one as well..XD..but due to my left ankle injury haven't fully recovered so i lose the game..lol..then here comes the veteran player..ah we..ah hong aka pirate king..arrived..lol...so lets roll!!

playing with them really makes me feels like back to those time..how nostalgic..haha..

the worst features

2008-09-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

regarding to the pose SERVE YOU RIGHT!! i actually left out something about the feature and some traits of the rempits..

ok here we go

firstly, i would like to touch about the dress code for the rempits...as i observed for quite some time, i found out that the common dressing traits for rempits:

1.) bad taste T-shirt

2.) jeans with carrot cut at the bottom of the leg

3.) sandals (this is the worst part)

4.) silver chain

the above combination most likely are the rempits' favourite style which they thought are damn cool..and i forgotten to mention about their physical look..the rempits mostly have damn dark skin..so with the shirt combination above, you can imagine how disgusting were they..and yeah..the hair style..i really have no idea what to comment on their hair style because no matter how they make their hair, its still curly and looks disgusting..lol..so conclusion they are still disgusting..

ok lets move on to some of the features about rempits..the common bike they have:

1.) honda EX5

2.) yamaha RXZ

3.) yamaha 125

and lots more..the brands and types mention above are the common one they used..there are few more which i not really familiar..sorry about that..ok..talking about bikes all of these bikes they used are less than 150cc.. now lets see the US rempits.. from what i watched in youtube, all of them wear leather jackets, jeans and of course boots..and they looks real nice with that outfit..because this is what a real bikers would dress if they are out for some convoy or whatever functions..and most important is their bikes...all of them use 500cc++ bikes..eg, harley davidson, honda CBX, honda and yamaha racing bikes and lots more..so they look just fine with all these features..and they can do wheelie with the heavy bike..alright now come back to the MALAYSIA 1..small cc bike, bad attire and lousy skill (where they did wheelie 90 degrees and crashed then die)..its totally low class man...they give a bad name to all the motor riders like what yuva said to me...

now lets move to the attitude and some other traits of the MALAYSIA rempits:

1.) talk damn loud

2.) talk cock (without using their brains cause not educated..lol)

3.) dirty (as they can spit anywhere they like as if no one's business)

4.) coward (cause whenever they lose in a fight, they call backup -.-)

5.) poor (no money for big bike and refueling petrol)

6.) shock sendiri (as they thought wheelie a small bike makes them feels like it was macho and damn style but is the idiot act to me)

7.) bad taste of fashion

8.) trouble maker (when they crashed, they didn't die immediately and brings trouble to alot people)

9.) bad riding attitude (ride the bike with only one wheel, then why the bike have 2 wheels??)

the above statement are all based on what i saw and think of them..ok the 1st 1..they talk damn loud..its obvious when they all are in one gang, they talk damn loud as if wanna catch attention..-.- (lousy) 2nd, they do talk a lot but with no facts and no logic..whatever they said is totally crap can be neglected cause never study properly at school ma..15 years old go rempit then got busted..lol..3rd, they can spit where ever they feel like, as if the dog pee at everywhere they went to..so nothing much different from dogs right?? 4th, they aren't brave enough to fight one-on-one..what they will do is they say one-on-one but then when he loses he'll call his gang to back him up or he will eventually run away before the fight (which always happen at SMK BRP..XD)..its that call a hero??5th, yeah, they are poor..for what i saw previous day, i went refuel my car with my dad and i saw 1 rempit..the amount he refuel is really gonna laugh your ass off..guess how much he refueled??the answer is RM1...lol..thats just about 0.356 litre..what the hell man??!!XD really disgrace..haha..well they can't be help anyway..6th, they are shock sendiri as they wheelie..i guess they will feel they are at the top of the bike not world which will makes them looks cool and macho..XD then suddenly crashed and died..then much macho and cool..lol...7th, they really got no sense of dressing..lol..like what i mentioned earlier..they can wear those disgusting outfit and go out..what a shame..=.= only pollute the enviroment..8th, they do caused a lots of trouble like throw stones at police car, snatch, robbery, vandalism and much more..and ya..when they crashed and did not die but handicap (broken limbs) this will makes other people suffer cause they have to look after you especially the family..pity them la...once crashed make sure die..so no more problems..lol..9th bad riding attitude cause other riders have the bad name..-.- as teh rempits always ride recklessly and endanger the other road users..don't be so selfish la..the road isn't your father's one..so if you (rempit) want die, die further la! and ya..the bike have two wheel, and why wanna make it ride in one wheel? its that really cool?? i think when you crashed more even cool..XD

so rempits, you all really sucks la..the law should enforce so that anyone who involve in rempit activities should sentenced for whipping..XD so that you will remember for life..and one important thing, once you got whipped, some of your nerve will be broken and this will affect your sex life..actually you rempits are not much difference to the other criminals...with your existance just will make the crime rate hike even more..if wanna be rempits, learn from the overseas la! buy big bike, then wheelie..if crash straight die..then can balik ke rahmatullah or heaven..thats the easiest path i will suggest to you..

what actually bothers in my mind

2008-09-17T08:38:00.000-07:00

i have come to realize that single is not the matter i care about..what really bothering me is loneliness within myself..this feeling is really hard to bear with..but i think i had been felt like this more than 1 year..well, its really hard..feeling so empty inside myself..every time when i felt down i can't really find someone else that really could help me to get rid of this situation..all i can do is keep it to myself..

its really hard to be alone,
its so cold,
no shelter,
no warmth,
no nothing but just myself.

its really hard...

SERVE YOU RIGHT!!!

2008-09-16T04:21:00.000-07:00

as all of us know, MAT REMPIT (i refer them as SHIT) in Malaysia seems to be a very common topic..but now i m here to share some of my experience here..this evening my mind suddenly think of going out to have a jog since i have been not exercising for a long long time..going to rust in no time...haha..so i rode my bike out to BRP basketball court to have some game over there..but when i reached the court, i couldn't saw even a shadow..=.= so i decided to go for a jog...as i parked my bike at the court, i saw pack of SHIT at the place where all aunties did their morning exercise..all of them were gathering there..so my mind told me not to keep anything in my utility box on my bike..so i headed for my jog..

after jogged 2 round, i walk another 1 round like what i did usually..so when i walked until the junction at the end of my secondary school, i saw pack of SHIT on their bikes and making round there..so i thought what is going on over there..but i care nothing and i continue my walk..when i back to the court, no one was there and there was no ball...=.=...so i waited for someone to bring a ball so that we could play..while waiting, i met ardy there..we chatted for awhile and then we saw a lots of bike rushing away all over the road in front of the court where the pasar pagi having...at first i thought its a convoy or something else...but in the end, i saw a police car-waja was persuing them ..wow..that was awesome..XD i clapped..haha..i was so happy that they got persued..i was hoping the Malaysia police car could add the crashing bar in front of the front bumber..XD so that they could ram them like what US police did..XD if they did so, they could bust all of them...but too bad..there were just one patrol car at that time...and ya..there were about 50++ bikes and all the bikes having 2 person..means there were 100++ SHITS there..lol..

alright..lets move the part i love the most..i saw a SHIT passed by the back street of the shop lot..when he tried to make a turn he slipped and fell down..but he manage to get away before one of the restaurant chef(mei kheng) got him...then the second fella was the unlucky one..my friend that was talking to the chef successfully caught him..2 of them get one small fella that was off the bike and tried to escape..but today was really a bad day for him..but i'd still say, SERVE YOU RIGHT!!no mercy for you...i don't care you are young or old, as long as you are mat rempit that really serve you right..in fact i still felt that the law isn't strict enough to punish you all..i hope there will be a little changes in the punishment for the rempits..that is give them the whipping in the ass..WOW!! that would be real nice if this happens..if got whipped, you will remember for life..XD and even some of your nerve will break..so that you will be less effective if you have sex...

as i been informed, that small fella that got busted was just 15 years old..he was being cuffed by the police...then when he got into the police car, he got a nice slap by the police at the driver seat..SLAP!!!!woooooooooooow!!!!!!!!!! nice one..yes!!! really deserve it man...XD mat rempits really useless and they are just the piece of junks that contribute nothing but just make the community more worst and contribute to the hike in crime rate..so i would like to say GO TO HELL REMPITS!!

good bye sem 1..=)

2008-09-16T01:45:00.000-07:00

16 sept 08, the day i finished my last exam paper.my holiday officially started right after the last exam paper..=D today i left my house at 12 as my last exam paper will be starting at 1400..so i went there earlier and also i did my registration for my guitar class level 4...then took back my guitar book from my fren..then i headed to college hall..i reach there at 13.00..still early..i saw some of my friends were earlier than me and they were reading the production engineering..haha..well..i joined them and read for awhile then all of us went in the college hall at
1345..while in the hall..all of us pray hard so that the question will not be as tough as the past years'...lol...when i looked up 2 the exam paper..i smiled...lol..coz most of it i ald did revised last night...lol..thank god!

i finished my paper at 15.00...then i sat for awhile and draw a machine due to i felt left out something in the explanation..lol..then i just take my time 2 draw it..at 15.15, i saw 2 of my friends raised up their hands and submitted their answer sheet..so i submitted as well..about 6 of us came out at the same time and started to laugh at each other as we all came out so early and so many people left the hall...

time really flies...26th may 08, was the first day i went to college to have my 1st class in the 1st semester..and now already 16th sept 08, end of my final exam..this 14 weeks were just went by so fast...and also time 2 say good bye to 1st semester and say hello to 2nd semester on 5th oct 08..everything seems to be so fast..lol..anyway..my holiday had been started..so HAVE FUN!!!

缘

2008-09-11T07:23:00.000-07:00

你我的相识是一种缘，

认识你是一种福份，

看见你是一种说不出的喜悦，

你的笑容仿佛阳光般，

为我冰冷的世界带来温暖。

你那颗柔软的心，

能融化把握铁般的心溶化掉，

拥有一把温柔声音的你，

语言上让我有所感触。

感谢能与你相识，

缘把我们两拉在一起，

认识你，

我很荣幸。

发现

2008-09-11T07:14:00.000-07:00

stuck in the middle of nowhere

2008-09-04T04:13:00.000-07:00

today, i took my 1st exam paper in college - physics..is kinda hard but somehow i still manage to finish it in time..argh..just skip this..lol..exam over ald no need to recall it...lol...what ever that was done, ald done..no turning back..when i sitting for my exam, there were heavy rain outside the exam hall..and i start thinking that i ll be totally wet like a duckling after i get to my car..=.=..as expected..i am all wet when i get into my car..haiz..who as me nvr bring umbrella la??lol..

as usual, when there was heavy rain, traffic jam!! i finish my exam bout 4pm and i leave college at 430..and i reached back home at 6..wow..what a hard time in car..get all wet and yet have 2 drive home with my eye almost close..haha..after pouring rain for awhile feel sleepy..but somehow i have to back to home...

when i was in my car with my mp3 player playing songs, my mind was at somewhere else.. and luckily there were traffic jam all the way i get home..if not i ll be in hospital right now..haha..about my mind was at somewhere else..i m not really sure what m i thinking at that time..perhaps it is more like my mind was all blank..=.=..all of a sudden felt very very lost..no motivation, no inspiration, no intention and no anything in me..

i wonder what makes me felt like that..but my aim to success is clearly vision and i m determined to do so..but when come to my own life, i m so lost and confused..i have no idea what i want, what i have done..the reason for me to feel like that is still unknown..haiz..

feel like i m moving on but i found out i m actually stuck in the middle of nowhere..i m really lost my sense of direction in my social life..

government hospital service

2008-09-04T03:44:00.000-07:00

hey there...i m here again to share something...this post is about the Malaysia largest and most advance hospital..well..for your information, the management in the dentistry department are really sucks..why i said so? this is because i m suppose to get my jaw surgery done by April 08 but they delayed my surgery without informing me..when i went to there and make my enquiry , i only found out that they actually cancel off my appointment..what on earth was that??!! the reason they gave me was there were few emergency cases, so my surgery could be delayed..alright, for the first time i just let it be..well now is the second time where the same thing happened...yesterday i went to there to reconfirm again my appointment which they given to me earlier..when i got there, the nurse at the reception told me that my surgery need to be delayed again..what the hell??again, the same reason i got..emergency case...

i wonder, why there are so many so called "EMERGENCY" case ahead of mine?and i left out 1 important point..that is there was only 1 surgeon and only have 1 day for the operation..wow..this is the Malaysia most advance hospital service?? and i dont know how they will get to know there are emergency cases ahead..and if it is emergency, means that it is really urgent and need to be done immediately..why must be done on the same date as mine?? they are "EMERGENCY" case forecaster? or some sort of bomoh?which can tell the future? if it is emergency and need 2 be done after 2 weeks, then the patient will suffer..and even make them more worst...i m here to say that their management are really sucks..

i m so sorry to said that but this is true..the service is really horrible...i have never see such irresponsible doctor...the main point here is i m really really dissatisfy about their service and the lame reason they given to me...upgrade the service is all i can say...

thanks!

Nowhere to go

2008-09-03T20:27:00.001-07:00

hey there..there was smt in my head bothering me..where the best way i tot of was to write it out here and share it..these few days, out of all sudden i felt i m so lost..i have no idea what m i doing nowadays..wat i did was switch on my pc then juz stone in front of my monitor..games?nah..not in the mood to play it since exam is right ahead..what about study? ald done it..go out lepak? no money + no company..haiz..i really got no where to go..yea and right..i think i m moving but i go nowhere...i guess this is right to describe wat i am now..

guess this isnt the 1st time u felt so lost...i really got no idea wat i want now..i felt so empty in myself now...